My heart was empty before this; free from this love thing..I was happy with my own life, having fun with my friends and keep on carry on with my difficult course that I'm taking right now. Until YOU came into my life. We start as acquaintance, knowing each other from orientation week. I don't have feelings towards you back then since we're from different courses and it's hard to see each other. One day, I realise that we're in the same TITAS class. We become a bit closer than before but still I try not to have feelings towards you. We're just friends and classmates, not more than that. And then, miracles start to happen when you start frequently text me till late at night. I told myself it was nothing and it's normal to text a friend that is opposite gender till late at night. Not long after that, you start making jokes about having a relationship with me. Yes, I want to laugh out loud about it. It's impossible a good looking guy to have a relationship with me. But then, one day you said that he was serious about it. I was really dumbfounded about it, don't know what to do. I said no at first, because I know you're still with your girlfriend. I'm not the kind of a girl who likes to steal someone's boyfriend and I'm not the kind of a girl who fight over a guy. On 30th October 2012, you start your move by asking me for my sweater and to see you at PFC. There, you told me that you broke up with your girlfriend for like a few days ago. You tried to convince me by showing your text and tried to win my heart by some flirty jokes, and yes, you almost win it. At night, you tried it again until at 31st October 2012 on 2.32 a.m. we've declared as couples. We made promises that we'll stay together like forever, never hurt each other..and the most convincing thing that you said to me till I was like you're the one for me is that one day, you said that you want to get engage with me and get marry after we finish our degree. STUPID! I was really stupid on that time..I'm so stupid to believe everything you said. Everything went smooth after we declared, and day by day, my love towards you grows until I feels like there's nobody can replace you. I really love you just the way you are, and I don't mind who are you and where you come from. However my dear, you have to know that fairy tales are always be fairy tales. When mid semester break had finally come, you started to break my heart when you said that you still love your ex girlfriend. Deep inside me, I was crushing, falling, dying...I wanted to cry but I keep it inside me, and I don't want to get caught by my family about it. So I keep my head held high and just fake a smile but the truth is I was holding my tears to fall. Before the mid semester break had finally come to an end, you said that we're still in a relationship and you won't go back to your ex. You said that you really miss me and love me. Yes, and again, I WAS STUPID TO BELIEVE YOU. Everything went back to normal till it's our 1st month of couple. I bought a couple ring for the special day and do you know why I was really eager to buy the ring? Because I want that ring to be a symbol that I love you, till the day that I won't be living in this world. It sounded stupid, but seriously, if I really love someone, I'll stay with them no matter what. Not long after that, you started to act strange. Keep avoiding me, didn't text me and when I called you, you seem to be not interested to talk to me. On 10/12/12, you finally decided to break up. Don't you feel how hurt I am on that time? You made a promise, and you broke it. You give me hope, and now that hope is only a dream. Your reason is just that you can't focus on study...such a BULLSHIT reason..and the worst part is that you said that you still love your ex...I'm such an IDIOT..A FOOL.. to believe every single words that you said before..to believe you that you love me..

now we're just friends..even though, I can't face you..I can't look at you, even just a glance..I f I look at you, my tears might fall again..

If you read this, I just want you to know..that I still love you..thank you, for giving me a chance to know you.